God’s Plans are ALWAYS Better!

Hi friends! I’m so sorry I’ve gone incognito. 2018 has been such a whirlwind and since the last time I posted, so much has happened that I haven’t been able to focus on anything else. So, today, I return to update you with what has been going on in my life since I last posted. As I began this post, I decided to title it, “God’s Plans are ALWAYS Better” because His plans are immensely better than anything I could have thought up or planned out myself. I’ve learned that first hand over the last couple of months how God can take terrible situations and use them in ways that have drawn me nearer to Him than ever before! You can read these posts about my miscarriage Here and Here.
Since then, God has been showing me how he can not only take a terrible situation and use it for His glory but also that His plans are way better than my own.

I especially learned this lesson at the end of March and beginning of April! It was a Wednesday night; just a few nights before my 28th birthday! Zach and I were laying in bed reading our Bibles and all of a sudden I feel him place his hand on my abdomen. I looked over at him, slightly astonished at what he was doing because this isn’t something he does on a normal basis. I asked him, “What are you doing?” No response. Then, I asked him again, “Zach, what are you doing? Are you praying for my womb?” No response. As silence went on for a few seconds, I began to think about how I had felt pinching and weird sensations in my uterine area for a couple of days prior but I brushed it off and disregarded it because I just assumed I was wishfully thinking. However, after a few moments of silence, I said, “Come to think of it, my uterus has been feeling weird the last couple of days…” and Zach said, “That’s because you’re pregnant.” Surprised, and reluctantly excited, I said, “How do you know that?” and Zach answered, “I just have a feeling.” Now, Zach is very sensitive to the Holy Spirit and so when things are revealed to him, his feelings are usually always right. He knew my friend, Laura, was pregnant before she even knew, he knew my friend, Christie, was pregnant before she shared the news with me, he had a feeling I was pregnant the week before I took my positive pregnancy test in January and he had a feeling that my friend, Kira, was pregnant before she even found out! So, since I knew about this gift of his and his track record, I just knew that I was pregnant, also! However, my period wasn’t expected for another few days, so I forcefully made myself wait until the following Monday before I would test. I woke up on and off that whole night and would make myself go back to sleep until I finally reached 3:30am on Monday morning! I peed on that stick and sure enough, that ClearBlue digital pregnancy test said, “Pregnant.” Immediately, a sigh of relief and joy came over me! God had blessed us again with a little miracle, this time, our rainbow baby, and only my second cycle after my miscarriage! After trying for our first pregnancy for over a year, I was hopeful that we might get pregnant quicker the next time, however, I told myself that it would probably take six months or so, and I would have been thankful for that! But just two months later?! This was unbelievable! God’s plans really ARE BETTER!

Mark 10:27 “Jesus looked at them and said, ‘With man, it is impossible, but not with God. For all things are possible with God.'”
1 Samuel 1:27 “For this child, I have prayed.”
Matthew 6:26 “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
Matthew 6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”

I’ve always been that person to say, “God’s plans are better.” But deep down, I’m not sure that I truly believed it. I don’t think I began to believe it until after our miscarriage. I listened to a Chuck Swindoll sermon about letting go of my plans and letting God take over. I told myself that in His timing, God’s plans would make sense, regardless if he blessed us with a child or not, and that if I’m truly desiring God’s plans over my own, then it wouldn’t matter if we had a baby or not but that following His will would be immensely better than any worldly desires I may have (including a baby).

Now, here I am, about to transition into the second trimester, feeling so thankful for God’s blessings! Some days, I still can’t believe that God chose to bless us with a little miracle and counted us worthy to experience this long trial that was infertility and loss. I’ve felt closer to God within these last five months than I ever have before and I definitely think it’s because I’m learning to trust His plans over my own, especially with this little life! And ever since I’ve started to have that mindset and truly believe that God’s plans are better, I can’t even begin to tell you the freedom and happiness I’ve experienced! Even now, God has blessed us with a little baby and I can stand firmly and say that HIS PLANS ARE BETTER! Put your trust in Him, my friends, even when it’s hard to let go of your worldly desires. I was there, too. I didn’t want to let go of the desire to be a mother and I wasn’t sure that I could be okay without having a child of my own, but now I’m learning that no matter what, God loves us more than we could ever imagine and He has our best interest in mind. Even if that includes infertility, miscarriage, or a different trial. Just trust in Him and trust that HIS PLANS ARE ALWAYS BETTER!

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Making our House A Home

After 6 1/2 years of marriage, Zach and I are finally homeowners (well, as of December 14, 2017)! The moment Zach and I looked at our house was the moment we fell in love! We’ve always wanted a spot out in the country and we always liked the thought of having a brick home…well, God answered our prayers on both of those things! We were blessed with a cute 4 bedroom/2 bathroom home in a little town only about ten short minutes from Columbia! It’s close to the city, while living on an acre of land surrounded by larger tracts of land…making it the perfect set up for our family! It’s our little oasis!

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Something I’ve always enjoyed has been decorating our house but it’s always been limited living in rentals. But now that we are homeowners, the home decorating has been brought to a whole new level of A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I can finally make this house OUR HOME! We’ve only been moved into our home for a few months and I already have quite a list of projects that will help add character!

Some projects I have planned so far:
1. Update kitchen cabinet handles
2. Paint the living room and kitchen
3. Put in a pallet wall
4. Paint the front doors
5. Re-paint and refurbish our white cabinet
6. Re-paint an old desk
7. Make pallet board/cedar shutters
8. Strip and repaint our back doors

As I begin to perform projects on our house, I would love to share some of the things we are doing with you all and so I have added a DIY Project tab to my blog. I hope that you all have fun watching as I add the “Fleer Flair” to our humbled abode!

 

So This Is 28

Happy Friday, friends! Today I have two things to celebrate, both of which are bittersweet: (1) Good Friday (2) My Birthday

(1) Good Friday: Today is the day we remember Jesus’ crucifixion and death. While on one hand it’s sad to think that Jesus gave up His innocent life for our own wretched, sinful lives, but on the other hand, it’s also a reason to celebrate because without Him and His resurrection (Easter Sunday), I would be without hope and dead in my sins, doomed for Hell. How could I not be looking at this day as a ‘Good Friday’ and a reason to celebrate?!

(2) Today is my birthday! My 28th birthday, in fact. Ever since my 26th birthday, I’ve found it harder and harder to believe just how close I really am to the Big 3-0! So, in that regard, it is a little bittersweet! I used to think that 30 was so old, but as I ever so steadily creep closer to that milestone, I’m starting to think that 30 really isn’t that old (or is that thinking just relative to my current age?).

But, as I celebrate the fact that God has given me 28 years on this planet, I can’t help but reflect and wonder if I’ve lived these 28 years the way God intended for me to. I started thinking about this on Sunday when one of our church elders, Todd Van Voorst preached on how, we, as Christians, should be taking up our crosses and dying to ourselves DAILY so that we can live for Christ. He used the example that it is better for us to attend a funeral versus a festival. This means that it would be better for our lives to attend our own funeral and be reminded that when we die to ourselves in this life (I.e. our funeral) we are alive in Christ for an eternity (festival).

So, that got me to thinking. What does my funeral look like? Would it be a God glorifying funeral? Did I live my life everyday for Christ? Did I make a positive impact on His kingdom? This thought has started to convict me and show me areas in my life I need to change so that I can be dying to myself daily and living for Christ with all my being. I want to smell like God. I want to stick out in this world. I want to be different. I’m no ordinary person. I’m a child of God! Is my life radiating Jesus to those that don’t know Him? Am I loving people the way Christ intended? Am I using my spare time to pray and spend time with God? Am I sharing what Jesus has done in my life with others so that they too can know Him?

As I celebrate my birthday, I’m thanking God for the blessing of my health, husband, job, friends, family and most importantly, another day on this earth that I can use to glorify Him! So, as I celebrate this birthday of mine with a day off of work (Yesss!), time with one of my closest girlfriends (shopping time!) and time with family, I will push forward in an attempt to live my life for the sake of Christ like I never have before!

How are you dying to yourself and living for Christ? Are you passionately loving others as God intended? What has he convicted you of lately? Let’s press onward together and share His glory with others! Below, enjoy some birthday fun!

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This was our first Halo Top ice cream experience! Thanks, Laura! xoxo
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My work crew give the best birthday sweets! Cookie cake (and lots of other things), yummm!

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Hubby took me for DQ Ice Cream Cake!
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Shopping with one of my closest friends, Jen.
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It was always a dream of mine to get a little puppy with a red bow around his neck for my birthday. My husband got this little prince, Jethro, for my birthday this year! What an adorable present he was!

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