I can’t believe I am halfway through my pregnancy already! Part of me feels like it has gone by quickly and the other part of me feels like it’s taken a lifetime to get here! Either way, I’m so thankful we are that much closer to getting to meet our little babe in December! This is a relatively huge milestone for us, not just because we are halfway but also because we had our 20 week morphology scan today which was both exciting and terrifying for two reasons.
1. Do we have a healthy baby?!// My faith in God has definitely grown (and needs to grow much more) since being pregnant because I’ve realized that I literally have no control on any outcome of my pregnancy. I can’t tell you the amount of anxiety and worry I’ve had leading up to this ultrasound because I feared that the ultrasound technician would find something concerning or abnormal with our little babe. I’ve known several people who have had bad things happen to their baby later in gestation so that makes it feel a little “closer to home” and that it could happen to us. However, I’ve been reminding myself over and over of God’s goodness, faithfulness and his unconditional love for our family. Why should I let the devil steal my joy and time with my baby right now? Why allow these fears to master me when they might not even be legitimate concerns? We had a sermon on Psalm 139 on Sunday and let me tell you what…Jesus has been rocking my world through these verses since then! Verse 16 says, “Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.” I clung to this verse while I was in the waiting room at the OB office. Jesus knew every little detail about our sweet little babe even before it was even a perfectly shaped embryo! What an encouragement it was to take that verse with me as I walked into the ultrasound. By God’s grace, the ultrasound technician said that our baby was measuring one day ahead of where we currently are in gestation and that she did not see anything of concern! What an absolute relief! It felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders after that appointment!
I’m still working on believing and trusting in Him fully throughout the rest of this pregnancy because, in the long run, those anxieties will only magnify once baby makes their grand debut. But, what an encouragement it is to know how deeply the Father loves us and all the plans He has for our little baby all ready! He’s knitting this little squirt in my womb as we speak and our babe is fearfully and wonderfully made. What an awesome reminder to take with me throughout the second half of this journey!
2. Baby Fleer is…//Finding out the gender was definitely the most exciting part of our morphology scan, for sure! Zach and I opted not to do the genetic testing at our 11 week appointment, so, because of that, we had to wait until our 20 week ultrasound to find out the gender! I was so excited to find out because, let’s be real…I’m ready to shop and decorate the nursery! Ever since the beginning of this pregnancy, Zach had a feeling that were were having a girl! He’s guessed genders right for many of our friends prior to their gender reveals and his feelings have always been right! We even performed some old wives tales tests to figure out if it was a girl or boy. We performed the pencil test (dangling a #2 pencil from a string over my wrist [our neighbors swear by this one]) and the ring test (dangling my wedding ring with a string over my stomach) and both of them solidified our feelings that we are having a girl! Even the wives tale about fetal heartbeats revealed that we were having a girl. That wives tale was correct for my friend, Laura’s baby, too! Along with Zach’s feelings that it was a girl, we became more confident about it when both of my parents had a feeling that it was a girl too (even a dream revealing that it was a girl). We even have our girl name picked out! So, really, our morphology scan was just solidifying what we already knew…baby Fleer was indeed a girl! Right…?! As the technician scanned over our little babe and revealed the gender, I was shocked when she pasted the words, “It’s a BOY!” on the screen! Tears of joy welled up in my eyes as soon as I saw that ultrasound picture. I looked over at Zach and he had the biggest grin on his face while he said, “I guess I was wrong!” He always envisioned himself having a boy when he was younger but with our difficulty to get pregnant prior to this, we were both just so happy to have A healthy baby! The gender didn’t matter to us. But, now, that we officially know the gender, we now have a future little hunter we are looking forward to meeting in December! I can’t wait to kiss that little boy’s cheeks and see if he acquires his daddy’s red hair and smart aleck personality! 🙂 Praising God for our little son.