“You aren’t good enough…” That has been a recurring thought in the back of my mind for the majority of my life. A perfectionist to the core, I’ve often idolized being perfect and would do everything in my power to attain perfection, but then, when I’d fall short, I’d remind myself, “Maren, you aren’t good enough.” My inward reflecting was debilitating and discouraging to my overall self-esteem. Regardless of what it was specifically, I’d tell myself that I wasn’t adequate. Whatever it may be: body image, intelligence, cleanliness, work ethic, friendliness-I wasn’t adequate. I did this over and over for years but it wasn’t until within the last few months that God allowed me to realize that these things were pure lies.
A friend of mine had recently answered God’s calling to her life by taking a step in obedience to do ministry. She shared with me her struggle of trusting God daily with His plans for her and because of that, she often believed in lies that were not from God. However, since the day she took this courageous step, she planned to overcome her struggle with replacing those lies with scriptural truth. She had plastered her bedroom walls with bible verses, one specifically I remember distinctly:
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
Then, finally, it hit me. All those years I had been believing lies from the devil. They weren’t true. I finally realized that I had been in a spiritual battle…one with that of Satan. The more I follow Christ’s will for my life, the more Satan will attempt to lead me astray. The only way I could win that battle was to fight it with scriptural truth. So now that I realize what I need to fight, I can take action by looking up verses for specific topics that I struggle with. For instance, if I’m struggling with worry, I go to Matthew 6:25-34, Luke 12:24-34 and Philippians 4:6-7; if I’m struggling with body image, I go to Psalm 139:14, Genesis 1:27 and Romans 12:6; if I’m struggling with patience, I go to Psalm 27:14, Lamentations 3:25-27 and Romans 12:12. The Word of God is my armor for this battle and since I had this realization, I’ve never felt stronger or more confident in truth!
The more I’ve learned to replace those deceptive lies with truth, the more I’ve seen the beauty of the Gospel displayed. Case in point, my title. “You’re not good enough…” That’s a true statement. We aren’t good enough! The way we live our lives are proof that we are living train wrecks! Our sinful nature has done nothing to declare our lives worthy of being good. No matter how perfect we try to be, we will NEVER reach perfection. Our sins make sure of that. BUT, that is where the beauty of the Gospel comes into play! Because God loves us unconditionally, He sent Jesus, who IS PERFECT to atone for all of our sinfulness…the sinfulness we deserve to die for! So, when I look at that statement, “You aren’t good enough,” it’s true, I’m not good enough, BUT because Jesus died for my sins and I have accepted Him as my Lord and Savior, I am now “good enough” in God’s eyes! That lie has been replaced with truth and I could’t imagine any other more perfect truth than the Gospel alone!